my current situation reprise

i didnt get the student conductor position...it sucks but what can you do

i have to focus on the good things in life

1. i am gonna be the tenor section leader for concert choir

2. i have some amazing new friends already

3. i dont have to pay for my own gas anymore...thank GOD and mom and shannie

4. im effing sarah reilly...oh wait...nevermind (inside joke...dont try to get it)

5. im in chamber singers!!!!!

its still gonna hurt a lil bit when he announces it and i get to see the looks of shock on everyone's face and get the sympathy and crap

i just have to remember those five things...plus all the other blessings that GOD has given me...and everything should be just fine :)

my current situation

well the new year has finally started and i'm so excited!

im finally getting things together academically as far as the classes i need to take to transfer. its gonna take me longer than i anticipated but im in no way in a rush to leave mt sac

im finally in chamber singers and i want this feeling to last forever

ive met some amazing new people: katy, amanda, and the sarahs, and gotten to know some of the old ones better :)

we found out that were going on tour to New York to sing in Carnegie Hall!! woot! im so excited cuz i was just thinking to myself about how amazing it would be to sing at carnegie hall with the chamber singers and now its actually going to happen!! and whats more concert choir is coming with us so that means JAK and BEE get to come too!!!

from NY were heading to DC for a concert there and then from there to Maryland to see Katie and do an exchange with her choir out there

all in all this is going to be a rather exciting year!

however, there's always one thing to ruin excitement

i want to be student conductor for concert choir

according to the rules of being a student director for a mt sac choir you have to have passed Mr. Rogers conducting course the semester before

i was the only RETURNING member that took the course...and i passed with an A

however it has come to my attention that a former concert choir member who is also in chamber singers is also up for the position. He was in conducting with me last semester as well as concert choir but he was only in concert choir because he HAD to be and is not enrolled in concert choir now.

it has also come to my attention that Mr MacIntosh (the director of concert choir) has been pressuring this person to join concert choir so that he can have the student director position.

this person does not necessarily want to do it...he already has an assistant director position at his old high school and he doesnt even like concert choir to begin with.

he could of course give in to Macs pressure and take the job, but my hope is that he will realize that there are other people who actually want it...who have indeed sacrificed certain things in order to have the position...and hopefully Mac will see that too

i was gonna wait for 3 months...

...and then i told myself and you that i gave up


turns out i havent


ive been waiting for 6months


whats gonna happen now?

markrissa!

i effing love you guys soooo much!!!!!!!




thatsall.

im gonna say it again and this ones for you

i will NOT just tell you what you wanna hear


im gonna bring you back down whether you wanna hear it or not


hang up on me all you want to

be angry


but im not gonna back down because you dont wanna hear it


you wanna end it now?



ok then


it'll hurt but i'll get over it


you wanna stick with the plan and be best friends and help each other out throughout the year


good


nothing will make me happier



i'm sorry if i offended you...that was not my intention



ok i think im done

somethings not right....

im not sure whats going on but i dont like it.

im awake now...and next week cant come soon enough

my attempt to sleep away what was bothering me only worked for about two hours, now im probably gonna end up staying awake for the rest of the night...great...just what i need when i have to get up for work in the morning


i really need school to start, like ASAP


im tired of being shut up in this hole


i miss my friends


i miss singing/choir


i miss steph and laurens apartment...even though they dont live there anymore


i miss katie...even though she wont be there anymore


i miss mr mac :)


i just need to get out of here