sometimes i wonder why i even bother...

...being nice to people and being people's friend and being there for people and doing stuff for people

its a waste of time

all they end up doing is leaving you when its most convenient for them.

they use you and use you and suck you dry of emotion and everything else they cant get their grimey paws on until there's nothing left, and then they just move on as if you dont exist, as if you didnt give them your heart and soul

where do they get off?

where does she get off?

where do you get off lawren donahue in treating people like that?

wasnt i there for you?

didn't i stay up into all hours of the night trying to help you make sense of your life?

didnt i wake up in the middle of the night or drop whatever i was doing because you called me and needed to talk about something?

wasnt i more concerned about whether or not you did well at call backs than i was for myself?

i just dont understand it

i dont know who you think you are, who you think i am

this isnt right

but i suppose i have to learn a lesson from this

and its the same lesson that ive been learning all of my life

the same lesson that even you tried to help me learn (guess i shouldve gotten then huh)

not everyone that says they are my friend is my friend...even you

havent you always said to me "things arent always what they seem?"

ya well i guess you were talking about yourself werent you

so i suppose i'm the fool in this one

wait

im always the fool it seems

so this really shouldnt be a surprise to anyone

im done

i think im gonna go to bed

sad right?

i know

but like ive said before: sometimes emotional stress can tire you out more than physical stress