how low can you go?

my life is in limbo right now.

i have absolutely nothing going for me right now.

i need a job.

i need to finish school.

i need some stability.

i have goals.

but how close am i to achieving them?

i thought i was on the right track but i feel everything slipping away.

i wont be able to stay in school if i dont get a job soon

but if i get a job it'll cut into my school time and so i'll have to cut back on school

thus delaying my departure from mt sac to sfsu? msu?

more things to figure out.

i do know one thing though: alissa.

does that make sense to you?

it does to me.

alissa.

i love her.

she is the one steady thing in my life.

my ultimate best friend.

and she's home.

does it make me selfish that i never want her to leave?

or that wherever she is i kinda wanna be there too?

i could follow...him...to san francisco but would i be happy?

i dont know

the feelings i have might only get stronger and ummm...unrequited love sucks in case you didnt know.

so back to alissa.

i would be happier wherever she is because she is constant.

i know if we do go together to msu we would end up running the place by week 2 lol

but ya

i have decisions to make

and things to do.

first on the list: job.

ready...set...go