hmmm...im not entirely sure how much i care

john and nina are getting married today...its after midnite so i can say today

thats not what im not sure i care about...that part im happy about...weddings are awesome

the part i dont know how much i care about is that i wasnt invited.

i mean i was one of the first people he told after he proposed...but that was only because i was with alissa at the time

we were never really close...we hung out at lunch senior year...but that was because we had a lot of common friends

idk i kinda just thought that i might be invited but im not entirely sure how much i care that i wasnt invited

initially i was hurt about it and considered contacting john to plead my case but then it just didnt seem worth the effort and i was probably gonna start sounding desperate which i really wasnt

i think the thing that bothers me the most is that markis (who is a member of the wedding party) and alissa were both invited and theyre my two best friends and when they get back from the wedding they will have all the fun memories and they will recount them all and i have to sit there and listen to it and wish i was there and not be able to say "stop talking about the wedding" without sounding, and perhaps feeling, all hard-done-by like some little kid that wasnt invited to the party and hasnt gotten over it yet

idk


love and stuff,

B.A.J