the reason it took me so long to start a blog...

...is because i dont feel like im interesting or deep enough yakno?

im definitely not a profound person...never have been

my life has been relatively blah...no major life changing events

ive had my share of drama of course...but who hasnt

i guess my cousin is right when she says i just dont give a shit and that im nonchalant...

maybe thats why im not a deep person...i never care enough about the events of my life to stress about them

so then what does that mean of you who are "deep"?

do you care too much?

is there such a thing as not enough or too much?

i know people say there is...but what does it really mean to care too much??

a conversation i had earlier with lawren is valid here also

the point of the conversation was this:

weird is in the eye of the beholder, meaning that when someone uses the phrase "weird" in reference to someone else it is meerly saying that the someone else's particular quirks are different than the someone's quirks. everyone is weird in their own little way basically...i guess that was the easier way to say it but whatevs

so my point in bringing that up is to say this: too say that one cares too much or doesnt care enough is simply saying that they do not care as much as or care more than you do...which continues to imply that they SHOULD care as much as you...and is that true?? do we all have to care the same in any given situation? i should think not! that would remove originality from the world...not all originality of course because there is more too being original than just this

but im sure you've gotten my point by now

perhaps i am deep :)


love and stuff,

B.A.J