some things arent supposed to happen...but they do...they just do

grief just kinda washed all over me all of sudden.

i had spent about two hours avoiding reading the bulletin that momma orr posted...i dont know why i was avoiding it i just was

and then i read it and i cant recall ever being more confused

i point blank refused to believe what i read

so i did some myspace investigating

still didnt believe it

called brittanyshe didnt answer, i didnt expect her to...its late

i still didnt believe it

but then i read something that forced me against my will to believe it

brittany's bulletin

momma's status

i cant handle this right now

i never knew matt personally but so what

i know his mother and his sister and i love them almost as if they were my own

their pain is my pain...only their pain must be 150000000 times worse

this will be the fourth person under 30 that ive known that has died in four months

its just too much

its more and more proof that we never know the day nor the hour

GOD has a will and its always being done for our betterment...thats the only comfort i can find in all of this

to the orrs:i love you with all my heart, and you are in my thoughts and prayers